hi

The reason I havent been drawing is because Im sad and have alot to think abaout. The ting causing this is that all in my class has or had a boy/girl friend, and had kissed someone. And I have never had a boy friend, wich also mean I havent kissed anyone yet. And that made me think that Im ugly.
And now I cant stop thinking abaout that. Even worse is that the boy Im in love with looks like he likes a girl that is not one of my friends (the girls and boys are devided into thre types, the mean, the unknown and the respectful).

She is one from the unknown (the unknown is hanging around mostly the mean ones, rearely whith the respectful). Many people thinks that by only looking in the mirror you know if your pretty, but it isnt that simpel. the brain is meant to rate other people then yourself.
So its imposseble to be shure that you are pretty without someone to tell you.

The most weird thing is that I mostly think abaout the life after death. And i have alot of theories. I even think abaut killing myself to find out. but Im not going to do that. The resaon is that one of my theories says that i should not kill myself.

You can comment your meaning of this and hopefully help me.